Sunday, April 02, 2006
reminder to self
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Darnisha â¥
3:20 AM
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when depression hits...
when depression hits, you just dont feel like doin anything.. u just want to crawl into a hole and not come out forever and ever...im not trying to give the definitions of depression... but the mental state where things just don seem to go right anymore...
i can still function as normal on the outside... i can still go thru life the way people see me go thru it.. the happy, laughing, smiling, all cheerful..crazy girl... im tired to put up that front for much longer...my inner emotions are breaking through..wat i feel on the inside...i feel like crap... yeah there are good days where i really feel fine.. but there are days where i just don feel like getting up...i just feel like crying and crying... hating life and everyone and everything around...wanna sleep and not wake up... problem is i cant sleep.. that makes it worse really... y i cant sleep...i have no effing idea... slept soundly yesterday with the help of my pills... yeah im a walking druggie...always under medication for something...running out of my pills now... gotta get new supplies...losing control...losing control of my emotions... i feel angry all the time.. angry at everything and everyone.. feel sad all the time.. feel dejected... feel like its easier to end it all.. but then again i think.. am i ready to face the other side?... that sure scared the shit out of me..
am i really depressed??... am i really suffering from depression... how can i be sure.. some people say that mebe its just one of those moods.. one of those phases.. but i feel different.. if its a phase..y issit still here... yesterday today and most probably tomorrow... y y y??? y doesnt it go away...i don want to feel like this anymore.. i want it to go away.. i want to be normal again...i thot i can handle it... seems like i cant do it anymore.. i cant hang on anymore..
im slipping.........slipping away into the darkness.............
will somebody save me...........pls help me......................................
Darnisha â¥
2:47 AM
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