Tuesday, September 26, 2006
The End
The End of singapore idol.. and HADY wins... i kinda feel sad for Jon. Did i tell u i went to the Finals Show....it was awesome...the energy was amazing...i think both are good... hady is much stronger vocally though...but Jon exudes charm and charisma...he was smouldering HOT!!!.... yeah baby....on to a more serious topic... more closer to heart.... the words the end has a big meaning attached to it.... at times i wish very much to just end it all... to have the strength to end it all.... and not have to go thru the hurt and pain over and over again....but most times i find myself unable to do it... what am i afraid of?... what are my fears really??....do i fear being alone? in the dark....in a small claustrophobic space....but at times, this person makes me happy too.... he has been able to take me out of my misery...some times that is...Every Relationships has its ups and downs... the ups are high up there that when i fall, it hurts...it hurts bad... when its the down cycle...where do i go.. wat do i do.. do i brace myself to survive the fall to after that crash again?
Darnisha â¥
3:06 PM
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Monday, September 18, 2006
Foolish Games - Jewel
you took your coat offand stood in the rainyou're always crazy like thatand i watched from my windowalways felt i was outsidelooking in on youyou're always mysterious one withdark eyes and careless hairyou were fashionable sensitivebut too cool to careyou stood in my doorway with nothing to say besides some comments on the weatherwell in case you failed to noticein case you failed to seethis is my heartbleeding before youthis is me down on my kneesthese FOOLISH GAMES are tearing me apartand your thoughtless words are breaking my heartyou're breaking my heart
Darnisha â¥
9:11 PM
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courageous front....
faced the onslaught i did... almost crumbling i was...
he was there and i was there....initially moment was awkward... like really awkward...
imagine this... we actually went out in the middle of the night.. drove around... from kembangan to bedok corner to airport thru east coast and geylang and back to kembangan... it was an awkward drive with him sitting beside me... just sitting... not a word... silence...
he said he wanted to talk to me.. very important that he sees me and straightens things out.... is dat to be the case?...not really.. all he said is sorry for all that he's done to me... if he has hurt me in any way...dats all??.... is dat freaking all??..... aarrgghhhh!!!!... my mind goin crazy for all the things i wish i had the courage to say back to him.... but all i said was "its ok ah, don bother abt it"...
aaarrggghhh!!!!... i really wish i can crawl into a hole and just let the world go by....
if i lay hereif i just lay herewill you lie with meand just forget the world......
Darnisha â¥
8:57 PM
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Friday, September 08, 2006
here now??
i wish to see you....i really want to see you...how the hell am i supposed to react to dat..not only have i been ignoring his calls i havent even replied his SMSers... now there is no way to avoid him... nowhere to run... nowhere to hide... wat do i do?.... i cant do it... cant pretend like nothing happened and be like before..not able to put those things behind me... wish that i can just crawl and hide somewhere.. but where????
Darnisha â¥
4:19 PM
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006
expectations....
its unfair....
you can't expect to hurt me and then expect me to be ok with it.
my emotions are fragile....my heart feels the pain...
words hurt.....ur words hurt....
still you dismiss it as if its nothing...
that hurt me more....
and now u expecting that i get over it...
keep asking r u ok? doesnt make me feel any better...
i just want to be close as our parents were, u say...
i dont have siblings i can manja with; i look upon u as a sister..
watever it is, it still does not give u the right to say those other things to me..
when confronted, all u say is dat u were just playing around...
how interesting that you find it apt to play around when it concerns feelings..
i want to get away from u... and u said no dat i have to get over this...
who gave you the right to say what i have to do...
you cant expect to hurt me and then expect me to be ok with it
Darnisha â¥
9:25 AM
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Monday, September 04, 2006
layman's laments
lamenting on life past....
people wonder wat the hell im getting at in my last post... well... ges its just me lamenting on my life... yeah.. sometimes i just get really really pissed off with life's unfairness...somebody asked me this question...do u think life is fair?....i dun think so...but at the same time i do believe that there exists a certain kind of fairness and equality.... i always believe watever hardship we face, we dun need to face it again in the afterlife....
haishhh... im just goin melancholic.. dats all...
Darnisha â¥
8:12 PM
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