Monday, July 28, 2008
lines and wat it means
i think i shall focus on my journey....through the next nine months....am sure gonna be lined by lots and lots of bitching....but hey...blame it on the raging hormones running amok in my body haaaa...went to the doctor....two lines on the white stick...wat it means....it means positive....positively pregnant....breathed a sigh a relief.....phewwwwww.... u cant imagine how it felt like....honestly....to have it confirmed by the doctor....yeah well my body was telling me one thing...but it sure was another to have it confirmed...u noe i was kinda afraid that i was having psychosomatic symptoms...like pseudo pregnancy symtoms...like when someone wants to be pregnant sooo much, they start to imagine their body changing and all...not quite sure if im dat psycho...but i can be quite the psycho i think too....but didnt care that the doctor said it was a weak positive...he said its still early...but its still positive ain't it?....if not would there be a line in the first place....right right right???? u noe...as much as the husband wants the baby and all...im not quite sure if he is mentally ready to handle such responsibilities....in some ways he is a baby...and wants to be babied....actually in a lot of ways... the responsibilities of having a wife and kid....im not quite sure if he is ready...honestly i think he is not....he doesnt seem to want to change his lifestyle...his hobbies still take centre stage...even after marriage....took quite a bit of toll on me....u noe...i was sleeping almost the whole day on saturday...too tired to even move....went out awhile to the doctor and to get something to eat at JP....on the way back he actually asked me if i was tired...and if i wasnt tired, he wanted to go fishing....i felt like punching his face in....he wanted to go all the way to pasir ris...and we were from Boon Lay...i honestly felt like punching his face in...for the rest of the entire weekend, he basically put on a sour face in front of me... prodded along moodily....screamed at his mother when she asked something.....was too tired to care...i slept thru....i slept in...and he got more angry....saying things like why do i keep sleeping....i just wonder if he noticed...is he like daft?....wonder if he realised wat the doctor said....thought bubbles : kicking him in the shin...punching him in the balls....yah yah....bad thoughts of my husband...but then again....he deserves it....so wat does the lines mean for me....nights mebe days of staying home alone...while the husband satisfies his need for his hobbies....nights staying up alone... trying to keep my food in...instead of puking all over my face every few minutes....so wat it means for me is...im having a baby...I AM the ONE HAVING THE BABY....
Darnisha â¥
7:17 PM
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