Monday, June 12, 2006
i need you.....
Had a big big argument with someone a few days ago.. said certain things which i shouldnt have said.. was too angry to even stop and think about the repercussions.. and im living the consequences now... i noe i hurt him badly... i noe its something that my pwince cant easily forgive me for...granted i deserve this treatment that im getting.. pwince asked me to stay away from him for a few days.. he said he will be back.. he still loves me and needs me in his life.. but at the moment he just needs to be alone... i find it difficult to just lay off and give him the space.. keep feeling like im gonna lose my pwince for good.. that pwince is not coming back.. he said "if you think that way, i cant help you.. it shows that you do not trust me, you do not have faith in me"...is that true?.. im not sure.. is it cos i don trust and have no faith or is it cos im just afraid of losing the person i love?
im not proud of myself.. did a lot of self-reflection.. thought about a lot of things... mebe the break might do us some good..pwince promised that things will be better after this.. i miss pwince sooo much.. i cant believe how much strength it takes to not pick up the phone and call.. i cant believe how much strength to stop y ourself from sending the messages late at night or early in the morning.. knowing that he is awake watching television...feeling tired.. restraining myself all the time like this takes a lot of energy.. a lot of effort..
pwince wants time on his own.. said "please, please just give me this time to recover from this"..i hope the recovery time does not take too long.. cos i miss my pwince soo bloody much i cant believe how hollow i feel rite now.. i cant believe how much pwince means to me til the moment he asked me to go...
please my dear.. please come back...im really sorry.. i need you sayang.. i need you in my life.. i love you with all of my heart..and im losing it here....im losing my mind with you not ard me...
Please COME BACK!!!!
Darnisha â¥
5:44 PM
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