Wednesday, February 21, 2007
the time has come....
...or has it?.....
Gonna bare my heart and soul in this post...beware ya all...brace thyself for an emotional onslaught...
been going out with Ian for the past week...yeah i agree that things did go too fast for awhile...lost my footing for abit..but lately things are getting really comfortable..i would be lying if i say dat i do not have any feelings for him..but i would also be lying if i say that i love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him..he is such a comfort to be with...just comfortable...dats it..call me a bitch..i actually fell asleep on him...while he was trying to get me excited...but i wonder if that feeling...that feeling which leads to sex can be developed...wat if it cant...i believe sex is a very important thing in any relationship..especially marriage...ok..not sex but more of physical intimacy...so honestly its so early in this relationship, and he doesnt turn me on...doesnt do it for me...i was honestly hot...but it just died...speaking of relationship, im not even sure im in one...he's sure...im just not...im still looking ard...still dating...still flirting with other guys...why darnisha why?..
go with the flow see where the wind blows... dats what i feel and think...but at the same time...im not sure if the wind is blowing in the right direction...
my soul suddenly said to me the other day...u cant be with ian lah...u need to be with me..
its really hard to get over pwince...and hearing him saying such things...haizzz....
suddenly sumone from across the border started contacting again....said that he broke up with his gf...and currently single... says that he cares alot abt me...misses me...
why oh why.....time has come for me to make an effing decision.....
Darnisha â¥
10:27 AM
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