Saturday, March 10, 2007
where do i stand
im at a lost as to where i stand now...i can honestly say that the more time i spend with Ian, the deeper i feel for him..he's just comfortable and a nice person to be with..yah he has his bad points...everyone does...so do i..but the thing is can i live with those bad points or not?..no doubt he's controlling, he's maniacally possessive of me, certain traits and things are well.....something to get used to...but i can tell him off and he would be ok with it...like really scream at him and he will just absorb...im not sure tho if all that will come out one day but for the time being it doesnt...expectations...we were talking abt expectations last nite....he said his expectations of an ideal wife / gf would be someone who doesnt smoke, doesnt drink, preferably someone who wears tudung. he said his frens were shocked when they saw my blog the other day and realised that i dun wear it in the photos...his answer was i have to lower my expectations sometimes... i asked y would u do such a thing? why would you lower your own expectations just to suit a person? wouldnt u be disappointed someday? ....his answer was you are interesting, you keep me wanting to noe more of you...i realise i have to lower my expectations...i said "but you could have met someone who could meet all those expectations with less complications than me....why do u lower it anyway"...his answer "if a cat sees a fish in front of him, even tho the fish is not his favourite type of fish, do you think the cat would go find another?"im thinking that cos im there so make do with it...he maintained that he stayed cos he finds me interesting...finds me intriguing... im crazy...whackiness to the max...never a dull moment with me...communication flows easily...and communication is the most important aspect...he added that i care for him...and that i was sincere in that caring....without expecting something in return...which is rather difficult to find in people nowadays...
Darnisha â¥
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