Monday, May 26, 2008
and so it shall be
initially thought that i would not be using this blog space...but i think i shall still keep this for my deepest thoughts.....im getting married this saturday...the closer i get to the date....the more uncertain i feel...actually i dun even know how i feel...dunno how to feel...dunno what i should be feeling....at times it feels like im making the GRAVEST mistake of my life....at times it feels good....at times i just dunno...had the opportunity to spend some time with my dear bestie....and a new person in the scene...i felt a sense of regret...regret that im getting married in a week...i want more time with these lovely people...i missed my life....went to attica with my dear bestie and some friends....oh gosh...how i missed it....not so much of the boozing...the dancing...the mingling around....the partying....i missed my life...and im gonna miss it more....yah i consciously gave it up when i decided to sell my life away....but i still miss it....i want more time....i miss my life....not sure if im ready to face the challenge....not sure if i would be ultimately happy...a princess warrior said "hey you got a good catch....congrats...he's cute".....ermmm not sure how i feel abt that, dear...hahahaha...considering u are actually wat...eyeing him ehhh?...hahaha...things are gonna be soooo different....yah it will fall into place...im moving on...but at the same time does it have to be a choice?...cant it be a compromise??...does it have to be one way or the other?....its hard....did i make that choice?....am i happy with that choice?...am i ready to face the consequences of the choice that i have made?.....honestly at this point i am not sure....yes...im getting married in 5 days.....but im looking back....am i gonna regret this decision?...is it too late now?
Darnisha â¥
12:31 PM
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